Left Alone to Grieve

A year ago today, my sister Janie Mata passed away. What people don't understand, especially my sisters, is how much it hurt me to see her go. The last few years, my sisters and I weren't as close as we were growing up. I guess you can attribute that to life, but regardless I still loved them. As sisters they all shared a bond that seem impenetrable and would open up only if invited. So when Janie died, they had each other to comfort and grieve with while I was left feeling alone and isolated. I have to give my wife, Robin a "huge" thank you because she was there for me through out all of this and knew my pain. And today, I feel the same as I did a year ago. They will have each other and I will only have my thoughts, pain, and tears as I remember Janie. I do cherish my memories that she and I had together. That and knowing that she is waiting for me when I get to heaven is strength to get me through today.